2015, One of the Most Epic Year in My Life So Far? Er...

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I can't believe that today is the last day of 2015. And I'm gonna tell ya about what's happened in my life this year. This entry is the longest I've written this year. Sorry if this thing is written in English. When I confess something, I gain more confidence to write about it in English, darn...
And, here's the story.
First 5 months of 2015, my life is quite boring. I only focused to that nastily exhausting national exam in high school. I spent most of nights with mocking drills and haunted by my own paranoia. What I wanted at that time was I really wished that I had graduated from high school in somewhat perfect way and accepted in university.
The relationship with my frenemy (?) at school, who had fraud a lot with me and probably the only one friend who could talk a lot about anime-manga, last year, was getting better. It was triggered when the rehearsal of one school play’s I joined on December 2014, she started to support me. And I was jumped in a joy that our relationship was like the 1st time we met. Still, my friendship skill was rubbish due to my INFP personality.
In the end of May 2015, I was graduated and prepared my SBMPTN. I chose 2 majors for this year’s SBMPTN; Food Tech and Computer Science. As the bombshell, I failed. I should have not to choose those majors. But since I attended Science program back when I was in high school, and the major which I should have chosen (Japanese or English Literature) was for those who choose Social program (for the entry test!), I almost couldn’t chose anything else. Biology? I might be good at it. How about Chemistry? I’m kind of keen about it, it’s all because of those good ‘ol times with my late chemistry teacher in high school. Physics or Math major? Damn it! The chance of surviving in this major is little (although I’m quite interested with physics and I’m kind of tsundere with it)
On June 2015, to “remove” my little depression about my failure to attend university this year, I was “sucked” into a fandom. And the fandom name was…

Top Gear.

I already knew that show from 2010 and I should have fancied it at that time. Both of my brothers have fancied it and what I could do was watching them from behind and literally had no idea about that. I didn’t know a lot and had no interest to cars; especially with supercars (this show reviews a lot about it). Had never known that Richard Hammond and James May were so ikemen back in 2007-2011; while before I fancied this show, the only chap I fancied a lot was the good 'ol Naoki Maeda. And how sarcastic and loud Jeremy Clarkson was. So, I decided to go deeper. Fancied this show since it’s already ended (I bet ye know the story how this show ends, aye?) was the worst thing I’ve ever done in my fangirling life, so far…
On August 2015, I experienced something which Arima Kousei from Your Lie in April (Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso) did:

He encountered a girl, who will probably awaken his old life.

I shouldn’t spoil a little gist about the story, but I have to do it in order to explain about what happened to me was quite similar to him.
I opened my Twitter, and saw James May’s tweet replies. I found a random TG fangirl, read her tweets, and I encountered a Twitter account of a TG fanartist, from Japan…

Her drawings were astonishing; I liked her techniques. She was probably one of a kind. Her drawing style was tending to Western Cartoonish than Manga-ish.

After I encountered her, I started to draw a lot again like I did back in circa 2011 (I drew Pokémon & DDR things a lot back then). I posted some of my works on Twitter, and she noticed me although my drawing skill was filthy rubbish (until today!).  From the time I encountered her, I declared to call her as…

Senpai.

Thanks to her, I’m getting motivated to draw more and hoping that I will probably improve my drawing skill. I started to follow her footsteps (read: the tools she used for drawing), despite I’m not going to follow her drawing style (I may probably try to draw Western Cartoon style in the future). In a nutshell, my dream in the fanartist life would probably like Miyazano Kaori from Your Lie in April’s ambition when she was a little:

“Mum, Dad! Buy me a violin! I want to quit from piano because I want to play a violin! I want Kousei –kun to play piano for me!”

My version would be like:

“I want to be like my Senpai! I want to forge my drawing skill!”

As time goes by, I encountered more TG fangirls (some of them are middle-aged women too!). Even though their backgrounds were different, they shared one thing in common; fancies the show and its former presenters (read: Clarkson, Hammond, and May aka CHM). Ah yes, I bet you’re surprised about this. You may found a boy who fancies SNSD or other girl K-Idol groups. But, how about a girl who fancies one of the best motoring shows (and the number one) in the world? There’s no doubt about it. What TG (or I’d like to say “CHM”) have done to me? I’ve already said about it in here. If you don’t want to open the link, here:

• Sense of humour is levelled up. 
• I’m getting more sarcastic than ever. 
• I may keen on cars (and will probably become a little bit petrolhead in the future?). 
• I shall never ever forget the taste of science lessons I obtained during my high school times. 
• I’m using more British English and my accent in English is tending to British as time goes. 
• And yes, I’ve got one more “racun” of my life; his name is Richard Mark Hammond.

That’s all for life in CHM fandom. Now moving on to my real life.
I’m getting broke. Although I enjoyed my new fangirling life. I had no idea about the future. The worst thing was…

Choosing a major for university was become such a pain in the arse.

I restlessly moaned, couldn’t decide the best of it. I had let go Computer Science program as one of the options. I would like to attend art school (read: graphic design program). However, I had lack of confidence to join it. Still, I couldn’t be more serious about being the TRUE ARTIST (as the real-life job). My parents were intervened me a lot. What could I did was playing devil’s advocate. Hoping that would not to talk about it in the future. As time flies, I must decide. Finally, after one serious intervention event...
I realized that the last resort was choosing either Japanese or English Literature major.
And my problem is not finished yet. Dad forced me to die trying again with SBMPTN (the Social program test version) next year in order to get that darn “college seat”. My response was:

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One more thing;

SBMPTN is somewhat a kind of RNG-based game in real life. You moan a lot about how fucked the game system is even though you have to deal with it (?).

-Rean-

I knew it sounded so cliché. But I would like to know about how many people are agreed about my quote (?). If you’re in, I’m relieved to hear about that.
Let’s talk about my gaming life. I really missed the taste of playing Pokémon. Because until today, I haven’t obtained my Nintendo 3DS. I only watched some chatters about it from behind. I don’t want to get spoiled with Pokémon games which I haven’t played (there are lots!), although seeing its anime on telly have spoiled me a bit. Rhythm gaming life was fine as usual. In conclusion, my gaming life this year is kind of boring. I wish I could play more mesmerizing games next year...
Last but not least, my life on Facebook is getting merrier. In spite of fracas and shit things (ye name it!) are happened more this year...    
So, what I'm gonna expect next year?

• Don't be a dick so filthy rubbish in friendship.
• Attend the university.
• Forge my drawing and essay writing skill.
• Fulfill AT LEAST one of yer bucket list's things.
• Try to bring yer good 'ol glories back.
• Try not to moan a lot about future life.
• And more... (ye can name it).

That's all for the story. I can't tell ya more since some of remaining stories which I should tell ya are too difficult to explain.

And on that bombshell, it's time to end...

-Jeremy Clarkson-

2015, which is full of shits happens and more...
I'll see ya on 2016, can't wait to fill it with more shits epics!


[BONUS]
"...all of us, each, and every one, lives a life that is, in its own right, an epic..."

-Richard Hammond-

Ah yes, I agreed a lot with ye, my dearest Hamster kuntet...